Close To An End
Or maybe I should just say, this is the end. Every story has an end. Unfortunately, not every story has a happy ending. Well.. At least I gave my best.
I told her everything, even my deepest feeling. But it seems that she thinks I don’t deserve the truth from her, not even a single word.
For her not to say a thing, actually, there are lots of possibilities. But I’ve been wondering all the time. What is the use of wondering? It will only make you get lost. That’s why I asked.
But it also doesn’t work. So let’s just focus on the fact now. I talked, I explained, I asked, and she keeps silent. For me silence means ignorance. Like someone turns their back on me. Since she does that, it means she doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore. And I respect her decision. So… Yeah.. Seems like my story doesn’t have a happy ending.
It’s okay. I just never thought that it will go this way. The other day, when she told me to stay away because she just wanted to be happy with her special one, I asked her to meet her one last time to reject me in person. I wanted to be sure if that’s what she really wants. If she’s so sure about rejecting me, if when I look at her in the eyes I can sense her happiness, then I won’t bother her again. If she’s happy, what else would I expect?
She told me once, “if you’re happy, I think I will be happy also”. My happiness is knowing that you’re happy. But right now, I really have no way to ensure that. If me staying away from you is something that can make you happy, then I’ll do it. Please be happy.