Worthless
Why is it, that loving someone, makes you feel like you’re the worst person in the world? It was happiness to just give, knowing that you can make the person you love smile. It doesn’t matter if you can’t be by her side, that she chooses somebody else to be by her side.
As long as you know that she’s happy and there’s still something you can do to make her smile, no matter how hard it is, it’ll still be okay.
I kept coming to her. Sitting next to her. Watching her silently. Wondering who was it that she had in mind. Get jealous when she was texting with somebody. But it didn’t matter. As long as I could be around her, seeing that she’s fine and could still smile happily, don’t mind me being there, and knowing that my presence might make her feel like she’s not alone, that was enough for me.
Now I feel like everything’s taken from me. She doesn’t want to see me. Me texting her will make her feel bad. I feel like there’s nothing I can do right. When the person you care about, refuses the attention you want to offer, it will make you feel.. completely worthless.