I got it. I won’t bother you again. Actually, I still have a lot to say to you, but I’m not gonna push it. I don’t want to make you feel uncomfortable even more. I really didn’t know that asking you that would make you feel irritated. You could have told me instead of just went with it. You didn’t have to feel bad. You didn’t have to bear it yourself.
You didn’t even know why I asked. Why didn’t you ask me to explain then? Why didn’t you give me a chance to explain? How would I know if it was irritating for you if you didn’t say it? Do you think I didn’t notice? That it took you longer than usual to reply. That’s why I asked in the beginning if it was okay to continue. Why say it was okay when it’s not? Why do you have to think that people are so selfish then feel miserable yourself? You don’t have to do something if you don’t want to. Don’t just do it out of courtesy and then feel bad because you think the other person doesn’t care about how you feel.
I can’t even talk to you now. I hope you have someone to talk to. Tell them you had a bad night. That someone was totally irritating. Tell them everything. Don’t keep it to yourself. Maybe I shouldn’t have done it. What did I think about?!!