Happy Birthday!!

Finally, your day has come. I have prepared a birthday greeting for you, but Amazon didn’t provide enough space so I got to cut it on the greeting card. Let me say it here..

Sometimes, it’s enough for me knowing
That we live under the same sky
Breathe the same air
And greeted by the same sun
But when it’s not, this is what I do
So happy birthday!!
May all the days you’re gonna go through
Bring you even more happiness
And everyone you have around
Shower you with infinite love
Stay strong, happy and healthy

Yeah, the opening is something I take from the first post. Because I thought, if you’re still curious, then I will let you know about this. Possibly, you wouldn’t know who I am. But you will know how much I love you. And I hope you’ll always remember that you are that lovable. That if someone failed to appreciate it, it’s their loss, not yours. But I suppose your curiosity has faded long ago.

I’m sorry I can’t be there for you. It’s not that I don’t want to, but I know I’ve never been the person you expect to be around during this special moment. So I won’t disturb you. I’ll always give you the space you need whenever you want to meet somebody that really matters to you.

I hope you like the gift and I hope that one can really be useful to you. I always try to choose the gift very carefully so that I can get you something that you really like. But it seems like other than the musical necklace, you never wore any of it. Well… Since I cannot watch you from buying a new watch, I just bought you one. So you don’t have to buy a new one anytime soon.

About the gifts.. I don’t know how you perceive it, but I hope you don’t get it wrong. You know, it’s not about the stuff that I give. It’s my way of telling you that you’ll always be remembered. That you’ll always be loved. That as long as I’m alive, you’ll never be alone. It’s not that I don’t want to be around. It’s just I know that it won’t matter anyway. Also, my presence would only make you feel uncomfortable. I don’t know why I’m so reserved around you. Maybe I’m afraid that my feeling will be shown.

The gift.. Actually, I started to send you one because I didn’t know what I could do to make you smile. Do you still remember what was written on the card at that time? “Thank you for being born. Thank you for being you.”. I want you to never forget that you’re so amazing just the way you are.

That year, seemed like you started seeing someone. You were so happy. So madly in love. But then you’re getting sad. Things didn’t seem to go well. I don’t who that guy was, but I don’t understand how could there ever be a person who could not appreciate your heart. It didn’t make any sense to me. And I didn’t know what to do. So I thought of sending you a gift. I hope you would understand that someone does pay attention and stop feeling miserable over the one who didn’t.

I don’t want to tell you who I am, because other than it’s very embarrassing, I didn’t want to make you upset knowing that it’s not coming from the person you expect it to be. I knew that it was not right. Because on the other hand, it’s also possible that you would think it comes from someone that you liked, while it didn’t. But I also knew that in time, you’ll find someone who can sweep away all the pain you have in the past. And that time, whoever send the gift wouldn’t matter anymore. Meanwhile, just know that you are precious to someone.

But I don’t know why, even after you have someone by your side, sometimes you still look so miserable. And every time it happened, I’m going crazy. Because now I can’t easily get around you to ensure you can still smile happily. You’re so good at making people worry, do you know that?

Tell me the truth, you didn’t really feel bad, did you? I mean, how can someone feel so happy then so sad, then happy again, and then sad again. How can your happiness and sorrow change so quickly? Even summer will enjoy at least a few months before it gives time to winter.

Don’t make it too hard for him to make you happy. But if he really can’t do it right, don’t keep hanging on to someone who doesn’t deserve it.

As for me.. I never meant to bother you, never meant to be mysterious or anything like that. I do what I do because I wanted to. I never expect anything in return. If I can just put a smile on your face, then all is great for me. One day, when I believe that it’s not necessary anymore, I’ll put an end to it. Meanwhile, just bear with me, I’m not sane enough.

Okay!! Now it’s time for music. There are so many birthday songs, but I’ll give you the one that I like the most.

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